WARNING: this is the only post I will write that doesn't exactly fit the theme of health and fitness.
HOWEVER, I think stress, how we feel inside, and how we deal with things can play a huge part on our well being as a whole.
For example stress can turn people to food, some people bury it inside them until they literally become ill. Others let it consume them to the point of depression where they lose all their zest in life or interest in taking care of their body.
Stress can effect you in negative ways and for some people (like me) can affect your attitude and health.
I realized personally I was stressed when I finished writing my blog today. When I went back and re read what I had wrote and saw that it was more like a diary than a heath and fitness blog,.
"Ok Jessica whats wrong now?"
I realized today this Christmas Eve 2010 I belong in Los Angeles NOT Sacramento.
I feel my body getting antsy, my mind wanting routine, and my heart yearning for something exciting. You may even go as far as saying I sort of resemble some kind of wild creature in a cage. Only, my cage is a little place called, Fair Oaks.
But Christmas wasn't even here yet...
I had to figure out a way to stay sane and happy for three more days until I returned home so today I ran.
And I ran and ran and ran. Seven miles at least. This usually cures me for the time being so I was surprised when I drove the whole way home with my eyes full of tears and a urge to punch something/one.
So I went with my instincts and listened to what my body wanted to do (or so you could say that trapped creature in the cage wanted to do)... and that was to smash something into another thing and I needed to plan it out soon before I took it out on the next person I came in contact with.
I couldn't stand to have it apart of me anymore.
I took a hammer and a few fireplace logs out in the backyard and had at it.
Now I know your thinking I'm crazy at this point but hey whatever I found a temporary release
Sure, I obviously need to find a less dramatic way in the future to cope when I feel as if I hit a wall but for today I had to do what I felt like would help.
When beating myself up didn't work, I beat something else :)
