Hello people. Today is one of those struggling days so please just put on your listening ears and hear me out.
Maybe I'll blame it on the abrupt change of weather that's got me all in a funk. It's finally actually starting to feel like what the month of February should feel like. Cold and overcast.
I went from being content with my schedule and routine of diet, and now have found myself comparing mine to other peoples. I can't be the only person who's done this though right?
I mean, I'm not talking about looking at others who are overweight (obviously)... and I sure am not looking at people who are skin n bones.
But who I'm comparing myself to is the athletic, small waisted, skinny legged people at the gym and amongst my friends. Sure you could simply call it a case of jealousy and the only way I know how to get over something, is to talk it through. So here I go.
Okay I just re read what I wrote. Hahaha I already feel silly, oh well, continuing..
Why am I the only person who wakes up and devours a huge breakfast to get energy from the gym?
I'm so sick of people who say, "yeah I had a banana and that filled me up."
What the &%&$^$? For real??!
Or the people who are too busy to eat till almost dinner time? How?
I could neverrr do that without feeling like DEATH as my stomach started to literally eat itself.
I'm getting hung up on portions. I'm getting confused whether I'm eating too much or too little.
I thought I ate like a normal person until I started eating with people again this past couple days.
(Iv'e been so busy lately, always eating at my house or on the go)
It's hard to ignore the ridiculous insecure second guessing thoughts that are bouncing around in my head like; "well that's why you don't look like them" and "I can't eat correct portions obviously" and "stop constantly eating".
This isnt me, whats going on?
But see how anyone can get wrapped up and have insecure moments, no matter who you are or how secure you think you are with yourself?
I'm here to say to myself and to anyoneelse who has found themselves in a weak moment:
go ahead. whine about it, pull the "poor me card", get mad at it.................. then move on.
Keep pushing, keep healthy, keep happy, and don't EVER compare yourself to anyone else.
Do what feels right, good, and natural.
Im feeling better all ready
Everyone have a wonderful Friday :)
