3 days later

Two-a-day workout's are in play and I can't seem to stop myself.
4,000 calories burnt each day and then yesterday I only worked out once and still burnt 3,000
Besides me wanting to be happy everyday because I feel good each morning when I look into the mirror, my baby Andrew is another big motivation.
Everyday he works out, EVERYDAY!  And just to maintain not to lose weight.
How stupid am I, from here on till I reach 130 pounds it's not going to be about working out everyday to be skinny, Im going to do it because I care about me.
So my 3 days have been consisted of:
UCLA running the track and the stairs,
running to the gym and back in the mornings,
taking the stairs everytime I go into my apartment,
taking the upstairs section during work,
protein shakes. apples. yogurt. and wheat toast.

All it takes is to  say and really believe your going to do something (like when I told myself I was going to do two day workouts) and then proveto yourself that you are not all talk and do it.
I realize that's why I have been feeling so hard on myself and "letting myself go"...
because I wasn't following through with anything I said I waa going to set out to do and that just gets tiring after a while!
Lesson learned.
JUST DO IT.

Day 2

Last night I decided to look at what my trainer logged in for my weight about a week ago.
 I thought I was brave and in a better state of mind tonight (which I quickly found out I was wrong)
An hour later of my pouting and crying of purely being pissed off at myself I saw I gained back ALL my weight I worked so hard to get off a month before plus 1 pound.
I knew when I woke up it was going to be a new day.
This morning I recited to myself how grateful I was for not being obese and for the genes I was passed down with. 8:30 am I put on my damn running shoes and ran 2 miles to the gym, I had a smile on my face the entire time. When I arrived at the gym where I did some weight training and tons of abs then ran my shaky legs back home to my car.
There, I jumped in and headed to GNC to buy my protein for what was now going to be my breakfast every morning and some multivitamins.
Its time for me to start taking care of myself and feeling good. I have had enough!!!
Sale at Sports Authority too?
Sure why not.
Might as well have great workout clothes since thats what I'll be living in until this 130 shows up on the scale...
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Two a day workouts and some self discipline. No eating out and controlling my hunger. I can already picture how proud I'm going to be of myself soon :)

Day 1 and a half

made it through the day off of two protien bars until I got to work
a salad, cup of chili, pumpkin pie, and bread pudding later
i feel horrible.... yuck okay maybe ill start Operation 130 tomorrow.... DAMN IT.

Day 1

Body Bugg is back on and WILL NOT be leaving my upper arm until I am 130 pounds

Day #1 Ive started out the day with a Apex protein bar, a few glasses of water and a forty minute cardio on the oliptical to break a sweat... given my stomach ache from being sick recently I dont have much of an appetite today. Wanted to run but took it easy instead. Wish I had time to go running later tonight but I work tonight so I'll try and ask for the section upstairs ;)
Having a fantastic day I feeling like this goal is going to appear fast this time. Going to keep my eyes on the prize! A banging body!
Now time to read my novel and get ready for work so that I can go straight from work and can study after class.

Note: start my day off with Neon Trees-Animal every morning, time to get pumped up for my life!

xo Jessica