Just woke up this morning early early early this morning.
Stomach feels so big from dinner, 4 "diet cookies" and a philly hot pocket.
Okay I get it, I get it.
Put shit in my body, feel like shit for the next day.
I'll try to think of this next time I mindlessly put the most disgusting thing down my throat.
ew a hot pocket jessica, really?
hehe
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
New Chapter
So I have been thinking a lot of my health and my fitness and trying to figure out why I go back in forth.
I care about my body for a month or two and get in the best shape of my life and then choose to ditch the gym and healthy eating for the next two months until I finally can look at myself in the mirror without gagging.
I realized I need to write these things down so I can look back and go by my own tips when I'm getting off track
Maybe this can help you out too.
TIP #1 BEFORE YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR OUTER BODY QUICKLY FROM FAT TO FLAB YOU MUST LOOK INSIDE AND MAKE SURE YOU ARE HAPPY INSIDE
so many times Ive worked out because I felt guilty or disgusted with myself, then emotionally I would be so down about not seeing results right away I would give up and continue my bad habit of eating a whole pizza before bedtime. When I'm happy an appreciate my body then I turn to work out because it makes me feel good, not bad. This boosts my motivation and gives me a better reason to want to take on Runyon Canyon.
TIP#2 SURROUND YOURSELF WITH NO ONE WHO ISN'T AS POSITIVE, MOTIVATING, AND SELF AWARE AS YOU WANT TO BE
If I'm hanging out with a friend everyday who smokes and constantly wants to get a drink to "relax from a hard day" I'm going to be spending my time consuming alcohol and smoking which makes me feel like shit. Instead I could be using that time being outdoors in the fresh air moving my body getting those positive endorphins going. Who wants to hear about someone else venting about how horrible their family, guy situation and job is.This is subconsciously bringing you down and that not what you need while your trying to live a happy and healthy life.
TIP#3 STAY AWAY FROM FOOD THAT MAKES YOU FEEL DISGUSTING
Fast food or going out in general, just don't do it. Would it really hurt to just stop at a grocery store and actually be able to glance at a label to make sure your not going to feel guilty about probablly consuming a days worth of calories in your breakfast? Or for example, if dairy like cheese makes you feel groggy or large portions of bread, skip the guilt don't eat it or dwell on it. And don't be around people who are hoing to give you shit for making healthy choices like this, their just jealous that your taking care of yourself, so stick around positive awesome people, this takes you back to tip #2.
TIP#4 YOU DON'T NEED THAT COOKIE
lets be real you probably are just craving something in your mouth. Carry around apples, whole wheat english muffin, something and then stuff your face with that. Your hunger or cravings will subside.
TIP#5 PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN
I start off with a protein shake every morning. Low carb and high protein, it keeps me full and I can't explain how important it is to start off with a healthy meal. It sets the tone for the entire day and if your still hungry have a few pieces of toast. Then you feel good through the whole day knowing you aren't feeling guilty and can eat freely through the rest of the day because you didn't eat your whole day worth of calories. This takes the stress off of planning what to eat all day.
TIP#6 EAT ONE THING AT A TIME AND WAIT AN HOUR
My problem is that I'll eat an apple while Im waiting for my eggs to cook, then Ill put on the brown rice and then wait one im done with that I notice I still need more protein and need to make some eggs.Onnnne itttemmm at a tiiiiiime. That's the hardest thing for me is once I feel like I'm starving or haven't eaten enough calories. I make up for it by eating everything I need to up to that in a 20 minute span. Usually right before bed. Eat enough through the day so you don't binge. All your hard work goes to crap which then ultimately leads to guilt. Bringing you back to problem #1.
I'll think of more later. It's funny how I have all this knowledge and knowing still in a few months I'll have to go back and refresh my mind on my own advice. I'm so bad :)
Time to hit the gym
I care about my body for a month or two and get in the best shape of my life and then choose to ditch the gym and healthy eating for the next two months until I finally can look at myself in the mirror without gagging.
I realized I need to write these things down so I can look back and go by my own tips when I'm getting off track
Maybe this can help you out too.
TIP #1 BEFORE YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR OUTER BODY QUICKLY FROM FAT TO FLAB YOU MUST LOOK INSIDE AND MAKE SURE YOU ARE HAPPY INSIDE
so many times Ive worked out because I felt guilty or disgusted with myself, then emotionally I would be so down about not seeing results right away I would give up and continue my bad habit of eating a whole pizza before bedtime. When I'm happy an appreciate my body then I turn to work out because it makes me feel good, not bad. This boosts my motivation and gives me a better reason to want to take on Runyon Canyon.
TIP#2 SURROUND YOURSELF WITH NO ONE WHO ISN'T AS POSITIVE, MOTIVATING, AND SELF AWARE AS YOU WANT TO BE
If I'm hanging out with a friend everyday who smokes and constantly wants to get a drink to "relax from a hard day" I'm going to be spending my time consuming alcohol and smoking which makes me feel like shit. Instead I could be using that time being outdoors in the fresh air moving my body getting those positive endorphins going. Who wants to hear about someone else venting about how horrible their family, guy situation and job is.This is subconsciously bringing you down and that not what you need while your trying to live a happy and healthy life.
TIP#3 STAY AWAY FROM FOOD THAT MAKES YOU FEEL DISGUSTING
Fast food or going out in general, just don't do it. Would it really hurt to just stop at a grocery store and actually be able to glance at a label to make sure your not going to feel guilty about probablly consuming a days worth of calories in your breakfast? Or for example, if dairy like cheese makes you feel groggy or large portions of bread, skip the guilt don't eat it or dwell on it. And don't be around people who are hoing to give you shit for making healthy choices like this, their just jealous that your taking care of yourself, so stick around positive awesome people, this takes you back to tip #2.
TIP#4 YOU DON'T NEED THAT COOKIE
lets be real you probably are just craving something in your mouth. Carry around apples, whole wheat english muffin, something and then stuff your face with that. Your hunger or cravings will subside.
TIP#5 PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN
I start off with a protein shake every morning. Low carb and high protein, it keeps me full and I can't explain how important it is to start off with a healthy meal. It sets the tone for the entire day and if your still hungry have a few pieces of toast. Then you feel good through the whole day knowing you aren't feeling guilty and can eat freely through the rest of the day because you didn't eat your whole day worth of calories. This takes the stress off of planning what to eat all day.
TIP#6 EAT ONE THING AT A TIME AND WAIT AN HOUR
My problem is that I'll eat an apple while Im waiting for my eggs to cook, then Ill put on the brown rice and then wait one im done with that I notice I still need more protein and need to make some eggs.Onnnne itttemmm at a tiiiiiime. That's the hardest thing for me is once I feel like I'm starving or haven't eaten enough calories. I make up for it by eating everything I need to up to that in a 20 minute span. Usually right before bed. Eat enough through the day so you don't binge. All your hard work goes to crap which then ultimately leads to guilt. Bringing you back to problem #1.
I'll think of more later. It's funny how I have all this knowledge and knowing still in a few months I'll have to go back and refresh my mind on my own advice. I'm so bad :)
Time to hit the gym
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Week Two
Weighed on Monday and the results:
Two pounds gone
Two percent body fat gone
That with me slacking off on Saturday and eating a bunch a crap late at night
mmmmm chocolate chip cookies :)
Im trying not to focus so much on exact calories Im eating because I do not want to get in the habit of HAVING to write down everything I eat to stay within a calorie range
I need to learn how to just know my limits and listen to my body
protein protein protein and skipping any junk because of the fact that I just do not want that kind of thing in my body
So now I'm day 3 on week two and I have ran everyday
finally feeling fit and athletic again
about time.
Two pounds gone
Two percent body fat gone
That with me slacking off on Saturday and eating a bunch a crap late at night
mmmmm chocolate chip cookies :)
Im trying not to focus so much on exact calories Im eating because I do not want to get in the habit of HAVING to write down everything I eat to stay within a calorie range
I need to learn how to just know my limits and listen to my body
protein protein protein and skipping any junk because of the fact that I just do not want that kind of thing in my body
So now I'm day 3 on week two and I have ran everyday
finally feeling fit and athletic again
about time.
Friday, December 3, 2010
3 days later
Two-a-day workout's are in play and I can't seem to stop myself.
4,000 calories burnt each day and then yesterday I only worked out once and still burnt 3,000
Besides me wanting to be happy everyday because I feel good each morning when I look into the mirror, my baby Andrew is another big motivation.
Everyday he works out, EVERYDAY! And just to maintain not to lose weight.
How stupid am I, from here on till I reach 130 pounds it's not going to be about working out everyday to be skinny, Im going to do it because I care about me.
So my 3 days have been consisted of:
UCLA running the track and the stairs,
running to the gym and back in the mornings,
taking the stairs everytime I go into my apartment,
taking the upstairs section during work,
protein shakes. apples. yogurt. and wheat toast.
All it takes is to say and really believe your going to do something (like when I told myself I was going to do two day workouts) and then proveto yourself that you are not all talk and do it.
I realize that's why I have been feeling so hard on myself and "letting myself go"...
because I wasn't following through with anything I said I waa going to set out to do and that just gets tiring after a while!
Lesson learned.
JUST DO IT.
4,000 calories burnt each day and then yesterday I only worked out once and still burnt 3,000
Besides me wanting to be happy everyday because I feel good each morning when I look into the mirror, my baby Andrew is another big motivation.
Everyday he works out, EVERYDAY! And just to maintain not to lose weight.
How stupid am I, from here on till I reach 130 pounds it's not going to be about working out everyday to be skinny, Im going to do it because I care about me.
So my 3 days have been consisted of:
UCLA running the track and the stairs,
running to the gym and back in the mornings,
taking the stairs everytime I go into my apartment,
taking the upstairs section during work,
protein shakes. apples. yogurt. and wheat toast.
All it takes is to say and really believe your going to do something (like when I told myself I was going to do two day workouts) and then proveto yourself that you are not all talk and do it.
I realize that's why I have been feeling so hard on myself and "letting myself go"...
because I wasn't following through with anything I said I waa going to set out to do and that just gets tiring after a while!
Lesson learned.
JUST DO IT.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Day 2
Last night I decided to look at what my trainer logged in for my weight about a week ago.
I thought I was brave and in a better state of mind tonight (which I quickly found out I was wrong)
An hour later of my pouting and crying of purely being pissed off at myself I saw I gained back ALL my weight I worked so hard to get off a month before plus 1 pound.
I knew when I woke up it was going to be a new day.
This morning I recited to myself how grateful I was for not being obese and for the genes I was passed down with. 8:30 am I put on my damn running shoes and ran 2 miles to the gym, I had a smile on my face the entire time. When I arrived at the gym where I did some weight training and tons of abs then ran my shaky legs back home to my car.
There, I jumped in and headed to GNC to buy my protein for what was now going to be my breakfast every morning and some multivitamins.
Its time for me to start taking care of myself and feeling good. I have had enough!!!
Sale at Sports Authority too?
Sure why not.
Might as well have great workout clothes since thats what I'll be living in until this 130 shows up on the scale...
.
Two a day workouts and some self discipline. No eating out and controlling my hunger. I can already picture how proud I'm going to be of myself soon :)
I thought I was brave and in a better state of mind tonight (which I quickly found out I was wrong)
An hour later of my pouting and crying of purely being pissed off at myself I saw I gained back ALL my weight I worked so hard to get off a month before plus 1 pound.
I knew when I woke up it was going to be a new day.
This morning I recited to myself how grateful I was for not being obese and for the genes I was passed down with. 8:30 am I put on my damn running shoes and ran 2 miles to the gym, I had a smile on my face the entire time. When I arrived at the gym where I did some weight training and tons of abs then ran my shaky legs back home to my car.
There, I jumped in and headed to GNC to buy my protein for what was now going to be my breakfast every morning and some multivitamins.
Its time for me to start taking care of myself and feeling good. I have had enough!!!
Sale at Sports Authority too?
Sure why not.
Might as well have great workout clothes since thats what I'll be living in until this 130 shows up on the scale...
.
Two a day workouts and some self discipline. No eating out and controlling my hunger. I can already picture how proud I'm going to be of myself soon :)
Day 1 and a half
made it through the day off of two protien bars until I got to work
a salad, cup of chili, pumpkin pie, and bread pudding later
i feel horrible.... yuck okay maybe ill start Operation 130 tomorrow.... DAMN IT.
a salad, cup of chili, pumpkin pie, and bread pudding later
i feel horrible.... yuck okay maybe ill start Operation 130 tomorrow.... DAMN IT.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Day 1
Body Bugg is back on and WILL NOT be leaving my upper arm until I am 130 pounds
Day #1 Ive started out the day with a Apex protein bar, a few glasses of water and a forty minute cardio on the oliptical to break a sweat... given my stomach ache from being sick recently I dont have much of an appetite today. Wanted to run but took it easy instead. Wish I had time to go running later tonight but I work tonight so I'll try and ask for the section upstairs ;)
Having a fantastic day I feeling like this goal is going to appear fast this time. Going to keep my eyes on the prize! A banging body!
Now time to read my novel and get ready for work so that I can go straight from work and can study after class.
Note: start my day off with Neon Trees-Animal every morning, time to get pumped up for my life!
xo Jessica
Day #1 Ive started out the day with a Apex protein bar, a few glasses of water and a forty minute cardio on the oliptical to break a sweat... given my stomach ache from being sick recently I dont have much of an appetite today. Wanted to run but took it easy instead. Wish I had time to go running later tonight but I work tonight so I'll try and ask for the section upstairs ;)
Having a fantastic day I feeling like this goal is going to appear fast this time. Going to keep my eyes on the prize! A banging body!
Now time to read my novel and get ready for work so that I can go straight from work and can study after class.
Note: start my day off with Neon Trees-Animal every morning, time to get pumped up for my life!
xo Jessica
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